Did you know that small worlds are wonderful worlds… ? It goes against everything the systems of this world have ever taught us. Doesn’t matter which system…. they are all the same…. economic systems… religious systems…. political systems…. cultural systems… my way…. your way… the highway… it is the cry of the natural man… bigger is always better…
Funny… God never said that… try googling this some time “smaller is better in scripture” …. amazing stuff….. I was asking the Lord about the whole subject as my world has gotten so much smaller and smaller with each passing day… He responded to me today. I was stunned.
What He showed me today is not what’s important… I am not trying to prove anything to anyone… I am simply telling one of my stories. I am experiencing some of the most moving things I have ever experienced.. each day… especially today…. I am totally humbled. My world is so much bigger than I ever imagined… all as I continue to just be…. who I am – where I am.… 🙂
“And what does the LORD require of you, Philp?” “To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.”
We were unpacking up here at Shadow Lake by 9:00am this morning… the next step has been taken… the especially good news is that my plan to take my meds at night… just before shutting down for the evening…. seems to be working. I tried to isolate which ones were making me drowsy… but looks like they all had a part in it… so… I now take everything at night… they knock me out… while my water pill gets me up almost hourly to get rid of the water… then I immediately go back to sleep for another hour… and my weight held over night… still at 200 lbs.
Sleeping at night instead of during the day…. has resulted in Philip being awake most of the day today and even being able to help with the packing and unpacking this morning… hooking up electronics and phones… making my own lunch… a pretty good feeling after needing ellen to wait on me hand and foot all the time. Tomorrow I get a visit from Home Health up here in Orleans County… and get set up with them here at Shadow Lake….
Bad news was that…. in spite of my increased efforts to put up my legs… both legs are still way too swollen with water… so that is the next focus… more time with my legs up. That was a surprise this morning after all the water weight loss.
The ugly news was to discover an open wound on my left leg, so we got on that right away and it is all wrapped up… waiting now for Home health to take a look tomorrow… That is how the leg gets infected and Philip ends up back in the hospital again with cellulitis… no thank you… 🙂
Hoping to touch base with my brother tomorrow…. and… ellen has a long drive to Burlington for a post-op visit on her now cataract free eye….
Keep on keepin’ on…. 🙂
Just a quick little note tonight… I had decided to take this final day here in Morrisville off... even though I have started a little experiment in when to take my meds … an experiment that resulted in losing 4 lbs over night last night… yessssss!!! Back down to 200 lbs again.
Phase II of the “experiment” is coming up shortly… I’ll let you know how it all sugars down tomorrow.
Leaving here right after breakfast in the morning… looking forward to seeing my baby brother at the Lake tomorrow… he is coming to his place on Shadow Lake to celebrate his 70th with family and friends… going to be a great week… !!!
Nice way to begin this next step along the path… 🙂 Everything else is beyond quiet… hoping to hear a little noise sooner rather than later…
I have been thinking about how tomorrow (Sunday) will be my very last day here in what has been our home the past 22 years. Hmmmm… 22 years…. that’s a long time…. more than double the time I’ve lived anywhere in my life… yet…. it seems it should be more difficult than it is… but it isn’t… instead I am looking forward to Monday morning and pulling out of the drive way… to set my feet on His path for the next steps in our great adventure….
That path starts up at Shadow Lake on Monday and will be taking us down to Wenham, MA sometime before mid-October. Our plan is to continue to simply be who we are where we are taking it one day at a time… dealing with whatever it is that He puts on our plates each day… we call it the simple life….. the great adventure…
Lots of loose ends around here right now… I will try to fill you in each day as the dust settles. It is what it is and will be what it will be all by His marvelous grace… and wonderful predetermined plan.
I mentioned the flip side of this circumstances coin yesterday… I am not talking about “God is on my side so I win all the time and He does everything I want Him to do for me”… What I am talking about is: “His demonstration of His love for us” … by allowing circumstances into our lives to show that He has everything under His control … then telling me…. “I could do this thing… but I am not going to do it… I have another plan for your life, Philip”….
It is still a demonstration of His love for me and all part of Philip’s growth… learning to trust Him regardless of the circumstances,… and the constant building of a deeper and deeper relationship with each other.
I have had many more failures than successes in my 82 years… always learned great things out of my failures… only got more arrogant from my successes… It is just how it is… I have learned to embrace it… and walk in it… 🙂
Had another wild day today…. lots of repeat kind of stuff as the ball keeps bouncing up and down…. Hoping to have more to report tomorrow.
What I wrote about earlier today… I have seen this over and over again, during these past 50 years…. “The important thing here, for us, is not whether or not they buy the house… the important thing here is His demonstration of His love for us, once again, by sending in this assurance that He has everything under control and reminding us just how easily and quickly He can change the circumstances…”
Sometimes He does move swiftly in a positive way… for instance… back in 1986… when God wrote Ichabod over my Perfect Church System (meaning the glory of God had departed… nothing remained).. we were suddenly without income, with a very expensive home, large mortgage and very large monthly expenses… (eg: electric bill was $2000 mo. during the winter)
We immediately listed with a realtor, the sign went up and we wondered if we would be able to sell before foreclosure… the next day… a man shows up at the door… he was on his way to see another property… made a wrong turn… saw our for-sale sign… looked at the house and drove right up our driveway… then rang the bell. We closed in 30 days.
I do enjoy winning more than losing… 🙂 even if they are both imposters…. 🙂
There is a flip side to this coin though… I’ve had many of those other experiences… works the same way…. results are different… on the ‘morrow…