t took me a very long time… to finally discover… that Philip’s biggest problem… is Philip…. my biggest problem is… me! … it just kinda goes with the territory… being human… born thinking the world should revolve around me….I needed to discover that my life was supposed to revolve around others…
Jesus picked up a towel and washed his disciple’s feet…. I missed it just as badly as His disciples did… I was more concerned about who was going to be the biggest of the big-shots… who was going to sit at His right hand and who would sit at His left…. it is always my importance that I am concerned with… not the importance of others... it is my being served by others… rather than philip serving others…
I did not think it “desirable that I should leave the word of God and serve tables”. … I am very important… let’s just delegate this serving thing to other folks while I do my important things…. “I will give myself continually to prayer and the ministry of the word.” hmmmmm…
I have used that scripture to exalt my self-importance… the religious systems have also used that scripture to create a special class … a clergy/laity system… educated and uneducated… a group of people that is better than the rest of God’s people… much more important… a group that loves my self-importance … I was chief among those religious folks….
God has a way of getting at all that stuff in me…. it works every time… He just brings my little world of self-importance to an end…. it crashes and burns as life happens to me… then… life as philip knows it totally changes once again…
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