I kept struggling with not being able to be His Caleb… not that I didn’t understand what He was saying about “weakness” … that fits right along with everything else He has been showing us… you know… like we never arrive… we never “get there”… we die in order to live… there is always more to see... about everything …. forever… He just keeps taking us one step at a time.
But Caleb… like I said… that was a struggle… maybe there was a missing piece here.. I had always been so sure that “Caleb” was where He was taking me…. so I went back and started to talk to Him about it some more… ending with “… but Lord, I had always thought that I would be your Caleb….”
He said these words and Philip turned to mush…
“You are my Caleb… you have been my Caleb for years and years… because you have wholly followed the Lord your God and trusted only in Me to bring my will to pass…”
I was once again undone and looked again at Joshua 14… how many times these words are here in these 10 verses…
“6Then the people of Judah came to Joshua at Gilgal. And Caleb the son of Jephunneh the Kenizzite said to him, “You know what the LORD said to Moses the man of God in Kadesh-barnea concerning you and me. 7I was forty years old when Moses the servant of the LORD sent me from Kadesh-barnea to spy out the land, and I brought him word again as it was in my heart.8But my brothers who went up with me made the heart of the people melt; yet I wholly followed the LORD my God. 9And Moses swore on that day, saying, ‘Surely the land on which your foot has trodden shall be an inheritance for you and your children forever, because you have wholly followed the LORD my God.’ 10And now, behold, the LORD has kept me alive, just as he said, these forty-five years since the time that the LORD spoke this word to Moses, while Israel walked in the wilderness. And now, behold, I am this day eighty-five years old. 11I am still as strong today as I was in the day that Moses sent me; my strength now is as my strength was then, for war and for going and coming. 12So now give me this hill country of which the LORD spoke on that day, for you heard on that day how the Anakim were there, with great fortified cities. It may be that the LORD will be with me, and I shall drive them out just as the LORD said.”
13Then Joshua blessed him, and he gave Hebron to Caleb the son of Jephunneh for an inheritance. 14Therefore Hebron became the inheritance of Caleb the son of Jephunneh the Kenizzite to this day, because he wholly followed the LORD, the God of Israel.